relationship question from a Sag/Aries/Sag

[Sag-girl]

Hi everyone! Glad to find this site!!! I have had Jan's book AFTS for over a year now, and am so happy to have it. It has truly helped me stick to myself, and understand others. \
I do have a dilemma though.
I am married to a man who had verbally and emotionally abused me when we first met. I married him anyway, and tried to help him to be more loving(he had been abused as a child)
I came from normal loving home, and didn't even know what abuse was, that's when I started to get into astrology. He is a Virgo sun Libra moon. His negative energy has drained me, but he has also gotten to a better place in his life. I feel obligated sometimes to stay with him for our children, but am not sure if I love him. I forgive him for what he did, but cannot forget.
Recently I met a Cancer man who just seemed like everything I have ever wanted in a man( I certainly know what I don't want).I care so deeply for my husband, and don't want to hurt him after he has come such along way. I don't want this other man to be the reason I don't stay with him either. It just seems that my spirit soars when I see this man. I am supposed to listen to my intuition, not my logic. But which is which in this case?Is the truth that I no longer love my husband, or is the truth that I am a wandering soul? I am a triple fire sign, so I do have a lot of emotions, and caring. I seem to want to help other people all the time, but not myself. Thats tough to do, because I feel I am being selfish. Well, let me know what you all think. Its personal, but you know us SAG's, we're an open book sometimes!
Thanks.

[Aquamarine]

No doubt Sag-girl... you find yourself in a difficult dilemma... I really feel what your saying, and so wanted to at least wish you God-speed and all the best!

Of course no one can tell you what choice to make about the men in your life... (I'd take caution if someone did) - but you've got Jan's AFTS, Right?

My 2 cents... where's your South Node (by sign & house)? Sometimes I find it helpful to read THOSE 2 CHAPTERS in AFTS... knowing that these areas for me are like an over-used muscle... they've been so developed & focused on (& perhaps misused) in past lives, that now the pendulum needs to swing the other way (to your North Node by sign & house).

THEN read the North Node chapters...

Just a thought... hope it helps... my South Node's in the 9th... so for me, I've had to understand the bigger picture of how overused/predominate/intuitive a "pursuit of truth" (Sag.) was in my consciousness, that it was only that... "my truth."

And what was missing in my mind map was a logical understanding of "realtivity of truth" (3rd house)... that everyone percieves life differently & no one person's view has less "truth" in it than does another's point of view.

But what I'm ever so slowly trying to suggest here Sag-girl, is that for me anyway, I needed to clearly understand the ways I made decisions that were inappropriate for this lifetime (over-developed/South Node).

THEN, when I had to make major life decisions, I knew "what didn't work," so it became more & more clear - (with practice... it's like a new muscle) - what choices were more in harmony with My North Node. And guess what... IT REALLY WORKS!

And it's alot less painfull then the school of hard knocks... when you refuse to embrace what your North Node is suggesting is your soul desire/path... my personal experience... the Universe can have some suprising/unexpected/difficult ways to "nudge" you toward your N. Node. :eek:

my 2 cents... good luck Sag-girl!

[Sag-girl]

Hey thanks for the reply! I get myself into some pretty tough one's I"d say. I believe we all have different paths in this life, and we just need to figure out what they are....that being said, my south node is Gemini in the 7th house....I"ll have to read up on that one a bit. I do relate a lot to anyone who has a Gemini planet in their charts, so it shouldn't be too difficult.....so what you're saying is that I need to stop the patterns of Gemini in the south node/7th house, and focus on my North node(which is Sag in the first house). I have a lot of planets in Sag...that should make it easier.....sometimes its tough to "see" who you are in that sign, because some of my characteristics are things I wish I didn't have, ie, a need for freedom, and lots of affection...how the heck to you get those two things together!! I have had my chart done, and my personality analyzed by an astrologer. I have also gone to see a spirit medium during a particularly dificult time in my life.....great experience....just got to put them all together....
thanks again...