noth node leo

[kat]

Hi!
I've read Spiller's chapter on n.node leo's in Spiritual Astrology, and New Moon Astrology... a lot seemed to ring true. But how can I put this into practice? I'm a shy libra rising scorpio with pisces moon and saturn conjunct asc in the 12th house-- there is nothing outgoing about me. Except for jupiter and saturn in the 12th, all my planets are cadent too. Although secretly I would love to be "the star of the show", I can't bring myself to be brassy, creative and fearless like the leo's I know...
So: How can I bring leo 10th house energy into my life, or learn to express it? My 4th house s.node comes a lot more naturally to be but I don't think its fufilling me, although thats where I want fufillment (through the love of family, 4th house, and friends, aquarius).
-Kat

[Aquamarine]

Hi Kat... something about what you said really touched me... & I thought of a few ideas that perhaps may be helpful.

First, I work for Jan... and help her with her correspondance (you can't believe the number of email's she gets a day!) - But it's fun, meaningful work. The only reason I mention this is because, more than anything else, the #1 topic/emails Jan receives are people appreciative & thanking her for writting Astrology for the Soul.

You did not mention having read this in your message. If not, I encourage you to do so. My personal opinion, it is my favorite because it addresses what I think you are asking about in you message... kind of a, "O.K., I understand (coginitively) that I would grow/benefit from embracing my N. Node in Leo/10th... now how do I do that??... it kind of goes against some of the other energies in my chart" - (Libra Rising/Pisces Moon, etc.).

AFS helps you understand that, "you can do this" (embrace your N. Node! - You just have to practice & not worry about "doing it wrong" or simultaneously feeling shy (that's ok)... practice. It's like an under-developed muscle... that's all!

Governor Arnold (CA - don't ask me to spell his last name) - didn't just lean over a set of 500 lb. free weights one day and develop his body that afternoon. Honestly... it's really the same thing... practice.

I know from my own personal experience... embracing my N. Node in Cancer/3rd can frighten the hell out of me sometimes... or I can "rationalize" some lame reason not to even go there (especially with Family... they're always the toughest). But when I do, the good Universe never ceases to Surprise me usual with a completley opposite outcome then I was expecting (fearing).

The only other thing that may seem helpful is that it sounds like you've got "the chip" in your MindMap to appreciate the value of Astrology in your life... because you communicated in your words a real sense of/connecting to - Astrology... very well!

Do you connect/talk with other people about Astrology (if it is in fact an interest/passion) for you? Perhaps this could become a good "venue" to EXPRESS YOURSELF! (that's a Leo kinda thing) & perhaps lead you in a direction/career path that is right for you (that's a 10th House kinda thing)...

I wish you well Kat... hope this helps...